LXXII. same old story, not much to say (fushizengirl
TF belongs to psychedelic_aya
. The line Terra says in the end comes from Persian poet, Hafiz.Notes:
An entry for the TF 10 Differences
picked the character for me, noticing that Solae needs more in-depth pieces so here I am~Summary:
An attempt to write about Solae.
Solae is a completely content person. There wasn’t anything wrong with her life and if something were to happen, she could always just look at the bright side of things.
In fact, the girl was so comfortable with the way things were as they are that there wasn’t anything she would like to change.
Many would wonder why, after years of being inseparable, she and her close friend Jyno still weren’t an item. It’s not that he didn’t try enough, that she didn’t like the same way, or anything of that sort. Both were ready for the commitment. They had a relationship so ideal, anyone would be grateful to be in their shoes.
But she never clearly established that she wanted the exact thing he wanted. When he’d try to cross that thin line she never did, she would step back. And yet whenever a third party would show interest in him, she would behave irrationally. This frustrated him at times, because what the hell did she want to happen?
“Is something the matter?”
“No, it’s nothing.”
Of course it was nothing, it was always nothing.
She wanted nothing to happen.
Or more precisely, she didn’t want anything to change at all. Everything had been going on at a constant pace that she knew exactly how to deal with things in any given situation. Looking at the upside was her way of coping. To change something in a drastic way with one simple move would in truth, drive her insane. She didn’t want to end up hurting him later on if she confirms her feelings but later on, pulls back out of fear for change. No, she was almost definitely certain that would be one time she won’t be able to look at the brighter side of things.
Jyno knew this, which is why he never pushed. He didn’t want to be the one to break her. She never told him, but he was one of those who noticed and was aware.
He didn’t tell her some things either; but only because he didn’t know it yet. She knew he couldn’t wait for her. He would always find a way to reassure her but he really didn’t have to, she already knew. He didn’t have to tell her. Heck, he didn’t even need to acknowledge it himself. But she could feel him slipping away as much as he desperately tried to hold on.
And somehow this knowledge didn’t bother her as much as it probably should. What they had was a relationship so ideal, that even if they were to disconnect, things would still fall perfectly into place. As if nothing changed at all.
That’s because nothing really did.
“I love the sun,”
Solae turned to her newfound friend with curious eyes.
“After all this time, the sun doesn’t ask for anything in return.”
Before Solae could ask what she meant by that, Terra continued, “Look what happens with a love like that, it lights up the whole sky.”
She couldn’t help herself from beaming up at those words.
“You should stay with us.”
Terra was a complete stranger with no past or anything to explain her existence. Even her name was something just given to her recently. Her appearance caused quite a stir at the village and no one had any idea what to do with her. No one really felt comfortable taking her in, it didn’t really seem the best thing to do from anyone’s point of view. Solae’s sudden offer caught them both by surprise.
She was certain though, beyond a shadow of a doubt.
Terra was the change she needed to keep herself at pace.FIN
It's weird, I know. Maybe someday, I'll fix this?